Wanna Know What My Status Is?

Wanna know what my status is? What my financial status is?

I'm broke bitches.

That's it. That's my status.

I make about $42,000 a year, I have $35,000 in debt including my student loan balance.

I am in over my head. I'd be doing OK if it weren't for the debt.

That's probably a little redundant, huh.

I attended some Debtors Anonymous meetings. Two, to be exact. I am afraid to commit to them. I joined one "Improve Your Life" gang a year or so ago and quit because it got feeling a little cult-ish. I am afraid of the same thing happening here.

Actually, no. That's not what I'm afraid of. Here's what it is:

I join these groups. For everyone else in the group, they have a support system in place - they have a spouse, kids, friends.

As I wrote that last statement, I realized that I doubt that there's a single person on this planet who completely feels that everyone in their life is perfectly supportive at any given moment of any given day. Most people I bet feel their spouse could do a little bit better. Or that the kids are a drain on their resources - both emotional and financial. I know, I know, kids are wonderful and a joy. But there are moments, even among the most All Loving And Perfect of you out there, that there are times, when even *you* just want the kids to shut the #$@#%@! up. Admit it. It's OK. Tell the truth. OK, don't. Liar.

Anyway, so I've been feeling all mopey that if I join Debtors Anonymous, I will have once again surrounded myself with people who are focused on a goal, but WHO WILL WANT TO GO TO A MOVIE WITH ME???!!! HUH? WHO'S GOING TO WANT TO GO CHECK OUT THE NEW HAWAIIAN FUSION RESTAURANT ON SATURDAY???? ANYONE? ANYONE? OK FINE FORGET IT I HATE YOU GUYS!

OK, so, maybe I need to just allow that the support group is for that specific area of my life, and I need to get a little better at having different parts moving at the same time. I've never really been good at this. Some people are really good at spinning ten or twenty different plates at one time. I ... am not. I spin one plate. And then I have to stop that plate if I want to spin a different one. So I stop the first plate and then spin the second plate.

I have to become a better plate spinner.

That's it. That's my entry for today. I just realized that I put a lot onto some things that don't necessarily warrant what I put on to them.

It's time I join Debtors Anonymous.

Thanks for listening. Until next time.